meant to be

Some things are just meant to be. For me, the past forty-five days has been full of life-changing ground breaking experiences, one after another. I'm moving to Texas, played the supporting character in a brilliant foreign film, re-discovered who my real friends are, have possibly met *the one* and dating, lost a distant relative, found another distant relative, rebuilt a relationship with a long-lost cousin, took a big risky step in business (and it worked out),... and heck, I don't even remember the rest.

the move... I'm going to Texas where I'll be living on a very *sweet* piece of Earth.

the film... I've been inactive as an actress for years but when I got a script that actually moved me... made me laugh, tear up, all about a girl who left the city she grew up in to go live on a ranch in... that's right, Texas - how could I say forget it. I got the script two days after I decided I would move to Texas. !meant to be! The good part, the dates to be filmed in Texas matched the dates I had already cut my plane tickets for. amazing, I tell ya. But a couple of big catches. My character was the last one to be cast - the actress originally casted fell ill. They wanted me to play the supporting role whose character was required to be somewhat of a "chub". So, I did something I would have never thought I would ever do. I agreed to gain a lot of weight in a short period of time to be part of what I felt was a beautiful Spanish and Portuguese film - and all in the middle of the hectic move I was making in real life. That's where the friends and V come in...

the friends... Well it's always a big disappointment to find out someone you respected as a friend is in reality shallow and selfish - and a total nerd. When someone changes their mind about you because you gained weight and they don't know you did it to be in a film, they suck. But it's an incredible feeling to discover who stands by you and is honest when your life is completely upside down; I have the best friends in the world and it seems the best of them always shine and are anchors in difficult times. Mar, Scott, John, Rob, Mike, Neno, Shav, Jas, Julie, Karen, Ish, Sandy, Ani, you all are my lifesavers! I can't believe what you guys helped me do... Thanks for all the delicious cooking (canolis and pakhlava!), tracking down the freakin' fattiest food in LA (it's always Mexican OL'E), and the support. And thanks for being there while I change back to myself - 15 mile at 4am SEE YA & really, *looooove ya!* I can't believe how much I'll miss you all and everyone else... you all are officially and unofficially invited to A's Lone Star Ranch.... wooohooo And the day I'm back to pre-film status, we're having the biggest kebab and bbq party ever known to a hye! Anhavadali....! LOL

the one... I'm falling in love faster than I can think about it. If you know us, you know what I mean :-) I never thought I would ever actually meet the guy I always pictured myself marrying - sure it was always a hazy picture, but this is as close as it gets. lol And the best part is that we've been friends for awhile, but who thought things would turn out like this. For the first time, I saw him - I mean I really saw him and then finally realized that he was so much like the person I've always pictured. And yeah Scott, I'll admit it - you told me so - yeah, and a long time ago :-) but just to point it out - I think you're the only one who thought so. It was the gold apple wasn't it? haha Retrospect. And the irony... it was the decision to move to Texas that changed everything and brought my *trophy bf* V and I together. Sometimes you have to think about losing something to realize just what it does for you.

the lost relative... I am going to miss you so very very much. I always thought you would be here to see and share a lot more of my life and hope that in the brief times we spent together that I was able to convey to you how much I respect and love you.

the found relative... I'm so glad that you're back in our lives.

the rebuilding... *mmmmwwwwaaaaaa* Yes al goozem razr-mah...

the step... Sometimes the strangest events are the best sources of ideas.

Well, I guess that about wraps up my thoughts about the last 45 days of my life. I feel so much better now that I've put all these bits and bytes together to form this post.