Waitin' on Somethin'

I would talk about that decision I made or the cards of film I shot of deer, but it all seems so meaningless to me right now. I'm just waiting. Except I'm not sure what the heck I'm waiting for. No really, I do a lot of "stuff" everyday, but just doesn't mean much right now. I've been working, holiday shopping (and decorating), and even spending time with some friends. I had out of town guests/friends last weekend and had a really good time with them. But all of it just seems like minutes passing while I'm waiting in some government office line somewhere - and the thing is, I don't know where I'm waiting or what for.

I realize that this all sounds dreary and quite unlike my usual chipper self, but that's just how it is right now. I'm sure the clouds 'll shove off sometime soon but until then, you can read about me waiting.

Sometimes people make things more complicated than they have to be, I think. Don't you? Most people don't ever seem to be living "in the moment". Everyone's wrapped up with some menial nonsensical to do, paying attention to following rules and fitting some norm. When you move long distance, and you have to unpack all those sentimental things, like photos, and souvenirs, and just other worthless stuff that only mean something to you, it makes you think.

I unpacked a box today. It was full of photographs of myself... different times of my life. A few baby pictures, many of the teen and college years, a few afterward. And as I looked through the photos, I remembered so many of the people I met and spent parts of my life with for one reason or another. Only a few are still around of course. Most have moved off or just dropped off the radar over time. Anyway, most of the photographs are of vacations and trips I went on when I was in high school and college. Stacks and stacks of photographs of friends and I... in all kinds of places, either having a blast or just relaxing, "kicking back" as it were.

That's all the thoughts and memories I've got for now. I've run out. Come back again for more after awhile.