into a re-friendship

He came back two weeks later after we met and we spent four wonderful days together, so we're just starting to get cozy in a re-friendship. I think we'll be friends for a long time.

Within a couple of weeks, a lot has changed with my work schedule, my new offices, investment plans, everything that's been anything significant in my life lately. There's been so much change that I'm having to keep notes to keep up? (yeah)

Well, this entire weekend has been one of travel for me, meeting a lot of *very* different people - no, characters is the better word here - and that's made me reflect, mostly on all the friendships I left back in California, converted comfortably to the periodic phone calls and emails. And also on the things I left un-tied. Things I never settled, probably mostly because I thought I'd go back really soon, and I haven't.

I miss people there, and definitely some places. If I spend the time to think about it, which I rarely do (and even then, only ever so briefly), I realize that I miss certain things.

Yes, I can get a little emotional, especially when I think about certain individuals. I guess it's my female prerogative to be that way.

I don't even know if anyone reads this blog anymore. I've been so remiss in updating it... Yeah, I think this pretty much qualifies as talking to myself.

I guess it'll just have to be a log about my life. wait, I think that's the whole point of a blog anyway, right? hm yeah whatever

Well one thing I know I wanna remember is what happened at the Kemah boardwalk. Despite the fact that noone reads this, I'm so shy about talking about certain things, I'm not even gonna write it down. Just the two words should be enough to be a reminder.

Let's face it, I have to make myself put entries into this blog. It just doesn't flow for me. I have to bother to remember the most one or two interesting things and then write them down. I think blogging might be better suited for people who like to do scrapbooking.
It's a nice craft, just not Amy's style I guess.

But since I've got all these posts up, and I love to finish things I start (haha), I'll keep posting entries that'll one day be lost in the www abyss, I bet to no end. I don't even think I'd ever go back to read any of these posts. If I did that, I'd definitely be surprised at myself.

I'm always on to the next thing, just don't like looking back. I like living in a continuous wave of relationships and events that blend and blur into one another for the sake of continuity. I don't segment things off in my life.. books, chapters, whatever, it's all one reeeally long poem to me. Even if I've referred to a 'chapter' in my life, that's b.s. I don't think I'm even capable of looking at my life or relationships in parts.

hmmm... so much for that brief look at - yeah, i don't know what that is either.